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Portis Discusses Taylor's Passing

On how he feels the day went:

"I think it went better than yesterday. A lot of guys were having that conversation on the sideline, just if Sean was out here, but as far as the tempo I think you see more guys smiling today. You see more guys trying to have fun today. Yesterday it was just hard. It was hard for anybody to focus, concentrate, do anything. Today I think we were just running around, a lot of conversations of 'I miss Sean doing this. I miss Sean doing that'."

On how he wraps his head around all the reminders of Sean Taylor:

"I really stay out of the locker room. My locker is right next to his. Just looking up and seeing that picture of Sean, seeing that locker cased up, seeing that seat sit right there- it's like an emptiness. It's a shock that you can't look up and see him. You won't look up and see him again."

On if he plans on changing his jersey number to 21:

"Twenty-one was Sean's number and for me to put it on, I can't go out and emulate Sean's style. I can't go out and be Sean Taylor. There is no need to drag it on or carry along, or even tease the fans or the people that admire him in putting that jersey on. All I can do is go out and give everything I have. That's what Sean did week-in and week-out, time after time, always. That was the best player I have ever seen. For me to go out and put that jersey on I can't live up to those expectations and I can't be Sean Taylor, so I won't even try it."

On if he is happy to be practicing again:

"It's due. The first couple of days being down with the family and going through it and getting the breaking news, it was basically trying to hold up, trying to be strong. Just out of phone conversations you hold everything in, you bottle everything in, it's harder than crying. Getting back with the team, seeing the memorial, going into that locker room and looking up, it made it tough. It brought a whole lot of things into perspective. Ladell (Betts, RB, #46) was talking today about how everybody felt like football isn't that important when you put life into a perspective and you don't have Sean anymore, but at the same time you see how much football is important because you see all the people that respect Sean. You see all the people who Sean has affected. It's touching around the world. It's the biggest news. It's on every channel. Everybody is talking about it. You never realize what football does for the people that are at home, the respect that people have for you from football. We take it for granted. A lot of days we come over here and we're like, ?Man I don't feel like practicing. I don't feel like doing this,' but in doing this you have to realize that we are cheering up a lot of households. There are a lot of people that look forward to seeing us on Sunday. There are a lot of people that get appreciation out of life by watching us, so we have to go out there and give everything we have."

On if he thinks about conversations he had with Sean Taylor:

"I constantly think about conversations. The DUI. The shooting incident. Every situation where it seemed as if Sean was in trouble and making that call and saying, 'Sean man, what's up now?' I would always get that same answer, 'CP, I didn't do anything.' I left it at that. If he tells me he didn't do it, it was alright, he didn't do it. I would call Coach Gibbs and say, 'Sean told me he didn't do it, so that's it. There's nothing else to talk about.' I just remember the conversations that I had with him and think about how he touched me and affected my life. The appreciation I got from having the opportunity to be one of the people who he would open up to or who he would talk to. You look back at that man and at the time you say it's hard to appreciate. You look back at that now and that is a memory that will last a lifetime."

On Sean Taylor's passing:

"You think about Sean and you think, he gave it his all. He fought. He held on as long as he could. The thing you accept, the thing that you realize in this is there was not anything Sean could do. You can't beat God and God felt like He needed to bring him [Sean] home and that's what he did. Down here, there is no more criticism. There is no more pain. There is no more hurt. We are all sad that we don't have him as a teammate or as a friend, but at the same time God brought him to where he needed to be. He is going to rest in peace and we are going to keep his memory alive."

On why he thinks Sean Taylor was never able to open up to the media:

"You all burnt him so many times. As far as the media, there comes a point where you get tired no body wants to hear your story. Even when they hear your story, you tell them what happened and they are still going to twist and turn, ask questions or doubt you or consider you lying, all this yellow paper. When it comes down to that, for that man, the media didn't mean anything, what meant more to him was what his teammates thought of him, the respect his coaches gave him and the people who knew him and loved him. Everything else, if you didn't know Sean, he really didn't care about you. He was a soft-spoken guy, a loveable guy, but if you weren't in Sean's circle he was not concerned about what you thought. If it was somebody who he cared about it probably would ring on in his mind forever. For Sean, that gave you the opportunity to see he didn't care about the stats, he didn't care about the publicity. All he wanted to do was come out here and play football and have fun."

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